Upfront Mama is something I’ve been thinking about ever since I had my little girl Poppy 11 months ago and now FINALLY I have the energy and time to really get going with it.
A little bit about me….my name is Nicola Bonn and I’m a radio presenter, journalist and very honest TV broadcaster who will talk candidly about pretty much anything.
Enough about my career though. What you’re no doubt far more interested in is what kind of Mum I am. Well if I’m going to be 100% honest with you, I’m not what you’d call a natural mother….I didn’t take to it instantly and really struggled to start with. When Poppy arrived I actually think I was slightly scared of her. I was totally overwhelmed that this tiny little thing now relied on me and I was just petrified that something would happen to her. I had had an emergency caesarian and my amazing husband Chris pretty much played the role of mummy and daddy in those initial days. I don’t think that I changed her nappy until she was about five days old and I also struggled with breast feeding which made things even harder.
As the days went on I started feeling better and my confidence improved and fast forward 11 months and I’m feeling much more confidence about this Mummy business.
One thing that I have to say that has really struck me is that before you have a baby there is SO much people don’t tell you. It’s as if there’s some sort Mummy membership club, full of secrets that you only discover after the event. My own Mum let me have a peek into this secret coven when she called me a week before I gave birth and said “You do know that labour really hurts don’t you darling!” Oh my goodness I was SO annoyed with her at that moment, but for better or for worse, my mum and I (as well as my Grandma, Aunts and sister) all have one thing in common….we are really really honest. I’m talking no holes barred, no stopper, sometimes gets us into trouble honest (like the time I told my best friend that she needed to Immac her moustache as a matter of urgency.)
Honesty is therefore what Upfront Mama is all about. I’m going to tell you everything that I’ve learnt about motherhood…the amazing, the good, the bad and the really ugly. If you want to know what it’s really like to be pregnant, go into labour, take home a newborn and try and put your husband off wanting sex for just one more month/year then you’re in the right place. I’ll be posting weekly YouTube videos and of course writing here as well. I hope that you’ll enjoy them when you’re up breatfeeding in the middle of the night and you want to laugh a bit or when you feel so pregnant that you want to punch someone (most probably your long suffering other half).
Welcome to Upfront Mama x